That Woman

A woman loves you.

The woman loves you wholeheartedly.

She follows you around like a shadow every day.

She smiles but is actually crying.

How much longer do I just have to look at you, alone.

This love that came like wind,

This love that is like a shit,

If I continue this, will you love me?

Just come a little nearer

just a little bit.

Please don’t step back

I, the one who loves you,

is still next to you.

That woman is crying.

That woman is very shy

So she learnt how to smile

Her heart is so full of tear,

She can't even share her story with

her best friend

That's why, that woman

loved you

Cause you were so like her

another fool.

yet another fool

Please give me a hug before you leave me

I want to be loved, dear.

That's all I wanted

She shouts, just in her heart

just in her heart.

No one can hear her

but that woman is still next you

Do you know that

I am that woman?

You don't ,do you?

Because you are just a fool.

how much

how much longer

Do I have to love you like this

This love that is like a fool

This love that is like a shit

would you love me?

That woman, who loves you

is still next you

and she is still crying.

The song is from Secret Garden, i searched for the translation because i felt it's so meaningful even it is in korean, a language i will not understand, even i tried. Baek Ji Yong is really a talented singer. :) Go youtube her song!
Anyway bloggie, i pierced my ears. i finally pierced my ears. i almost cried when i saw the gun, then i started shouting like a mad cow lol. oh wait, cow doesnt shout. im glad that i have pierced my ears. my first accomplishment in 2012. proud? yeah me too :)
It's chinese new year. Year of the dragon. have u visit Pavilion's Dragon? :) Gong Xi Fa Cai n May God bless u n your family xx.

You will eat the fruit of your labor; blessings and prosperity will be yours.

So, today was my first day in Cengal, the class was totally different from Belian, Belian is always noisy, which is not really a good thing. Friends i dare not say, but i could say, Belian's teachers are so much better than Cengal's. Maybe because im not used to it. I dont know, but from what i experienced and seen today, I Should sort out my time and say goodbye to my very comfortable bed, take the bloody books and read up efficiently and effectively like this..

you know most of the cengal students are really bookworm. there's absolute high chance for me to be in the last position. I will assume this and hope this assumption come true.
so, it started with me telling myself

I shall assume that in few months time, the chapters i thought i would never gonna understand would now be understandable to me and they are clearly registered in my brain. so i would say, i have successfully caught up my studies and will be ready for the trials..

*assuming again* had trials for 3 months...

Im definitely going to say this.

i'm not giving up! because i know i have tried. As for SPM in November, i'll try even harder to score better.. i believe that God will save the best for last haha :)

2012's eve

Yesterday was my school's form one orientation day. woke up early for the first time during this holiday. few parents praised me today, i dont know if thats a good thing. i know im a hypocrite, who isn't? But, was i being fake or that was me at that time? hmm.

Tomorrow is 2012. tonight im going to countdown at FGA :) In 2012, i hope i can help more people. but, look at the first picture. that's what many other people say on the last few days of every year! i found few comics online from the star. it's so real! haha. they realised, but i cant really see what actions they took to get over it.

eat like a boss in malacca

Who doesn't enjoy craving for good food?

We walked along Jonker Street, had our first pitstop at one of the famous chicken rice ball shops, then, we craved for durian chendol! i didnt get to taste satay celup cause sis didnt

recommend it, and said it wasnt that worth to eat. i've read so much in my history textbooks but this is kinda like my first time visiting malacca D: sad for me right. so, i treated myself like a tourist. i woah here n woah there. :D

the Dutch Square or the Red Square, was full of red-coloured buildings. the Christ Church , the clock tower and shop houses were all in red. interestingly, i wore red too

. perfect match haha. time passed by really quickly when we're having fun eating. didnt realise we were here for like nine hours already! before heading back to KL, we had a nyonya style dinner in malacca at ole sayang. i would definitely go there again. After a full day filled with lots of food, it's time to chiaoz. so yeah. ttfn#

My starry starry night...

No star can shine with a broken heart

You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, seen centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... Made me want to turn away and never look down again. But to see the way that mankind loves... I mean, you could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So, yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan, is... I think I love you. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it doesn't belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange — no gifts, no goods, no demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me, too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine.

love, the Shining Star#

i'm so sorry but i love you

It is our choices that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities - JK Rowling

I couldn't sleep last night. I went to bed at 10pm, yes, 10pm! i didnt want pimples to pop out like theydid in the last few months. but, not long after i closed my eyes, i woke up. so many questions were in my head. troubled. one of the questions was Accountant or Pharmacist? they are both different thing. i did my research on this two jobs, and i guess i'll go with Accountancy. Click here for information of Accountancy n tell me if that's the right choice. haha. Although i know no one is gonna do that. so, God, read it n tell me k? :)

Btw, it's Chin Teng Fong's birthday today. I lost her contact. she doesnt have a handphone or a facebook account. so, i hope someday, she will read this. This is for you! I hope u can blow these candles n make a wish. Thank you for accompanying throughout my form3 year. without you, my life wouldn't be this joyful. Have a blessed day :) Miss you.

Remainders of 2011

Super Junior was on Hitz.tv on Christmas!

Not a big deal for me, but for those SUJU's ELF. Merry Christmas! Who said VIPs doens't fancy ELFS? VIP and ELFS are good friends kay! Psss, Siwon is cute ;) and i got the BIG BANGG ! album from him 8D

Simple and Joyful christmas has past in just a blink of an eye. Nothing much to say about the event. Just a very unique present i received from my uncle. He gave me and my sisters 2 wrapped presents. We gotta tear it in front of them and distribute them equally. Not gonna say what are they. but i have to say, i suddenly turned into those pasar aunty selling veges. wtf. i wish i could erase it from my mind and no one was there looking at me. D:
Overall, Day passed finely.

Few days remaining, and all the people will head to year 2012. End of the world? Not yet, i said. cause, no one is ready! NOT READY FOR SPM. few days left, im certainly not looking forward to 2012. i'm supposed to catch up with my studies, especially Chem and Addmath. And also, i wish i can spend my time efficiently. God help me ! im worry. so worry that i couldnt sleep some nights, sorta..

My worries

• couldn't have fun with friends
• couldn't change myself to a better daughter, grandchild, sister, student, gf :(
• couldn't get any position in Girl's Guide
• couldn't finish revising for all the up-coming exams
• physics' Heat and Light
• addmath's differentiation
• chemistry's Salt
• couldn't score at least 6As in SPM
• couldn't prove myself right
• couldn't make mom proud n happy
• Im lazy to read BIBLE (since it's 2012) !
  
  

Uhhh, Buh bye. I need somebody to love, Big bang :)

i wrote this for you

There are few things i would like to share today.
1. Today i spent my day meaningfully n productively.
Early this morning at 11, I accompanied sis Jaclyn to the dental clinic. oh, btw, I was scolded by mom for waking up late, again! uhh :( Later on, we went KLCC and get my kate spade. there was a cute fatty boy, i guess he never used the escalator before. he was so scared to use it to get down to the next floor.. at the moment he stepped on the first step of the escalator, the people around him and those who were waiting for him clapped, in
cluded me. haha. kinda interesting. but something strike my heart, telling me there're many people who can't go out any and who didnt even know what is a shopping mall. so i'm grateful to have a mom who likes to window shop so much, thank God for blessing me with her. :)

2. it's Friday today, tomorrow is Christmas eve and the very next day is Christmas. I'm worry that i won't be happy with my gifts. you know, it's a tradition for all of us that

every year we anticipate presents. hopefully it's something huge and useful haha. Went FGA for christmas celebration.
There was a very astonishing performance, they weren't Christian, but after they performed, and after our praise and worship, they knelt down before God. Prise the Lord. The drama was really touching. i told you im not a good story teller, so i aint gonna tell you here. :( All i could say is, Christmas is not about presents, santa clause and christmas tree. The main purpose of all of them is to strengthen our relationship with family and friends. God love unity. So, have a wonderful christmas with your family.

But i would also like to say, even if you have been so good this year and u didnt get what u want on Christmas day, Believe me, God wants us to be patient. The best thing goes to those who wait :) Maybe God has blessed u a great year ahead! Love is patient.

3. I wrote this for you. This is the blog i visit most often. i would like to promote her, so that u can support her, too.

4. Currently obsessed with this tvb drama. English title is Bottled Passion, if im not mistaken. Watch it, no regrets :) P.S i cried hahaha :) im such a cry baby!